When I'm not feeling very good I don't like being touched. This is sort of a problem because I don't live alone.
I don't like when I tell the kids not to hang on me, but sometimes I feel so uncomfortable I feel like I might scream or push them away.
Lately I've been trying to breathe through it. This is extremely difficult and usually I can't concentrate on anything else. Interestingly, my mom never liked to be touched. She never said why, it's just something I know about her. I'm doing better than her at least in that I'm raising three kids who still like human contact. Hopefully they always have that in spite of my issues. Hopefully this is a temporary setback and I'll feel better and more human soon.
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Thinnking about you. Hope you feel better soon.
I sometimes have trouble with being touched, too. . . which has puzzled me, because at the very same time I crave physical contact more than almost anything else. I think I am needy for a particular kind of touching, and the kids get my hackles up because they're so *grabby*, which is NOT what I want at all. I feel awful when they just want to be close to me, and touch me, and it's making me crazy. I know what it's like to need that contact and not have it reciprocated. However, sometimes I just need the kids to give me space, and as much as I don't want to discourage their cuddliness, I think it's good for them to understand that there are times to lay off for a bit. I just try to be sure and come to them with cuddles later, when I am feeling more ready. :)
(Please excuse my rambling.)
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