...since I've written about photography or Elements. I've been continuing to mull things over though. There are a few more thoughts I've had on the subject.
1. I'm not a great photographer. I see photos every single day that amaze me. Most are taken by people who have basically the same equipment that I have, and live normal busy lives like I do, but they see things. I look at their photos and I wonder why I don't see those things. Part of the answer is that I feel like I don't have the time. Sometimes I see beauty, but I'm rushing off somewhere and there is no time to stop and compose a shot. Most of the time, I bet I miss it completely. I'm tired of always being in a rush to go or do something.
It's not just about seeing things, it's about showing you what I've seen through the photo. I'm pretty good at that, but not great. My stuff doesn't look or even make me feel like other's photos do. I know what I think is great and it's not what I can do right now.
2. Another thought I had about photography is that I care entirely too much what other people think, while at the same time I dislike the praise. I want people to love all of my pictures, but I feel incredibly embarrassed when I'm told. What the hell is wrong with me? More importantly though, why can't I just do it for me? I say that I take pictures for me and when I am actually physically taking them - it really is. But afterwards, the only way to keep the good feelings about what I've done is to not show them to anyone. Once I put them out there I get too emotionally involved with them. It's not a good feeling.
I read on Tiny Buddha today that to be successful, first you need to define success for yourself. Then you know your goals and priorities. The article also said success is dynamic. So what you may think is success one day, can and probably will be different the next. I don't know what success is or how to figure it out. I am lost. For the first time in my life I wish I was alone so I could think. I've never been, or ever wanted to be alone before. Now more than anything I wish I was forced to be silent and face my own thoughts and feelings until I know who I am.
1 comments:
You have much more of an 'eye' than you give yourself credit for. "I look at their photos and I wonder why I don't see those things." Every artist is familiar with this sensation, and thank goodness for it: imagine how boring it would be if all great art(ists) saw the world through the same lens. What you see is *yours*, and all you have to do is share it, if you want to. The mere act of seeing things in this way will continue to open creative windows in your perception. If all that happens from it is that you become a more active and interested observer, then a great and wonderful transformation has already taken place. The rest is gravy.
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